misalalison

misalalison @ 2006-04-03T18:58:00

2006-04-03T23:01:27Z

i didnt even put my neck out there and he still had to fucking chop it off...i dont fucking get it. i hate this shit. i didnt even want this shit and it happened and then it un-happened. why the fuck? i think im gonna just go be a prostitute or something. that would make my life better.

over

2006-03-28T03:43:33Z

im going to be lonely and im going to be ok with it
im a big girl right?
still coming into town this weekend...i'll just be free the entire time
so call me
and i'll be lonely
but i wont be bummy
promise

misalalison @ 2006-02-23T03:00:00

2006-02-23T07:58:34Z

im a wreck
its like i cant stop thinking about my dad
i just keep wondering how i can find someone to marry who carries the recessive albinism allele so when i have children, the odds of them being albino is higher, assuming i carry the allele from my dad. its insane. im kind of going wacko. i could miss my dad and be productive, you know, like directing this shit into doing work cus my dad always said he was scared i'd continue to coast through life. but no, instead of studying for my exam, at all, or for class for the past 2 months, i've decided to research rando genetic disorders that interest me like lionitis (inspired by recent Grey's Anatomy and the movie Mask where Rocky Dennis touched everyones lives) and albinism. if im a big bum and i dont work at all, nobodys gonna marry me and the odds of having albino kids are none. ive got to get it together eventually. i mean im 20 years old now dammit. its time to stop wasting time on ridiculous shit. fuck
you know i throw more temper tantrums now then i did over the entire course of my childhood. its absurd. im absurd.

misalalison @ 2006-02-23T02:25:00

2006-02-23T07:22:58Z

So here's my newest thought. By attempting to scare away every potential mate with craziness, assholiness, and commitment i will eventually find the one who is so fucking ridiculously into me that they just wont go away. So far im losing. But i'll continue to trick guys into thinking im normal until about 4 or 5 months in, and then i become crazy, just like that bitch Kate Hudson played in "how to lose a guy in 10 days". funny thing - i was shopping for a dog for adam and i and trying to figure out a "cutesy" name i could give it that was meaningful to our relationship. maybe i'll just say fuck it and name the damn think "Krull the Warrior King". im sick
also...
hygeine's not that important anymore. i decided there's nothing wrong with showering less frequently. and teethbrushing, once a day will suffice. they make floss and mouthwash for christ sake!
also...
Grey's Anatomy made me bawl. there was this guy with "lionitis" - he looked messed up but there was something about him that made me bawl the entire episode. out loud, ridiculously loud.

misalalison @ 2006-01-10T16:33:00

2006-01-10T21:36:16Z

im a big angry fatty
and this is what i decided
i refuse to give in to the 1/2 of my genes that might turn me into a self-serving lazy ass bitch
so i may be an angry hermit, but at least ill be productive

bitching and moaning, like i like to do all the time

2005-12-09T06:44:25Z

-so not to be a hypochondriac...but i have persistant achy lower back pain and i can't explain it whatsoever. my only connection is that i was taking antibiotics for my random unexplained knee infection about the time it started. anyone have a clue? im kind of scared.
-now that im single again, and for a while i suppose...here's the plan. wipe clean my romance/relationship related emotional baggage slate and just stay busy with not-boy-related shit. cus when i sit and think about the perfect man i know who has shoved me in the friend corner, all it makes me do is communicate with him about basketball via text messaging, hoping deep down inside that he'll call and want me to come hang out. hA! not happening and what does that do...it shoves me further and further into the friend corner. so...as i look at it...polymer is a lost cause. and i will now move on. maybe i wont meet my mate at FUrman...maybe grad school? im ok with that.
-duke plays texas saturday at 1:30...should be a super good game
-ill be attending the panthers-bucs game on sunday with my sis. can't wait.
-im now partially financially independent- well moreso than i was a week ago. this fucking sucks. i have to be all thrifty and i cant just treat myself to a pedi and a trip to the polo outlet ever few weeks or so. bullshit. know of any job openings in the greenville area? yea. thats what i thought. fuck
-conclusion ive come to: Im either way photogenic or way not photogenic...but my real appearance is somewhere inbetween the two.
-i have an exam in 7ish hours, which im totally unprepared for and im fucking sleepy. oye. i hope its easy. poop

misalalison @ 2005-08-21T23:36:00

2005-08-22T03:55:29Z

-fuck the OC
-so i think im depressed. what a general term eh? i dont know. id like to think im just in a rut - but this is a big fucking rut this time. my dad had some issues with depression i think. so do some of the other relatives. i reckon its genetic. but when i think about that i just think about how much i wish i were with my dad. my mom's reaction is like "why dont you go back to Irv" or how about some medicine. i mean fuck. i miss my dad. i fucking hate this fucking fucking fucking hate this. Irv would just tell me to work on the "negative thinking" my mom tells me to "brush off" everything. i cant just brush off every fucking thing in the world. and its like just after my dad died. i hated everything and i'd get really bummed when i was alone. but i was fine around people. if not cheerful. but i hate it. and i dont care about people's feelings. im just a shitty ass person. i want to be a hermit. and then surface in like 2 years and be normal. if that would work. but i have to go to school. so what does one really do in a situation like this? other than meds and psychiatric help. i volunteer but that doesnt make me love myself. i think i need a focus. maybe that'll help. what should i focus on? ok i'll have several focuses: 1 - getting sexy. 2 - running. 3 - learning new shit on wikipedia. 4 - decorating my apartment. i'll devote my every free moment to the mastering of this shit. and i believe that will work. if not then fuck. but i have to believe it right. right. i need some inspiration. i need a role model or a soul mate or fuck i miss kellobird. kilah. father. mr. malison. why did he die? of all the fucking people in the world. the one person i've always needed and loved and related with more than anyone.
-i dont like living now. i wish i lived in the 70's. or the 20's. shit's too complicated now. and everything's such bullshit. life is bullshit now.
-im a hermit now. well acutally lunch with mel and katie tomorrow. hermit after that. hermit with focuses. 4 of em.

death by stereo!

2005-08-10T02:37:04Z

-i finally got some. but not even "got some got some" just minor getting some - like making out...not even 3rd base. ha! bases. thats good. anyway. six nine australian. what do i remember from the evening: #1 he's friends with ANDREW BOGUT! hell fuckin yea. if you dont know who that is...check out Utah's bball last season. he's the man. #2 i told him "putanothershrimponthebaaaarbie" about six hundred times. anyhoo...that didnt make me un-lonely. im still lonely. at least im not being too slutty. i dont really remember what he looks like.
-I LOVE LAW AND ORDER
-oh... underrated fantastic movie of the last century: THE LOST BOYS...hotties, vampires, romance, action, sci-fi. what more could you ask for! geeze.
-sunglasses found - gold earrings with birds on them still missing. call me pronto if they show up. im going through accessory withdrawl.
-do i value shallow things too much? like a connection to Bogut or a sweet car or nice clothes? i dont pick my friends based on that. and i dont show preference to people who have stuff. so why would someone suggest that. my talk is cheap. like 10 pesos cheap. just because i worship the new M35 doesnt mean id be friends with someone just cus they have one. gosh. underrated = lisa. poop
-sometimes i wish shit would happen to me to make me unique. like crazy bad shit even. just to separate me. im boring. gotta work on that for sure.
-what's trendy...i want to get a piercing thats trendy yet classy. nose is "played out". earring check. lip,tongue,bellybutton,eyebrow nah. any suggestions?
-Blow time...oh how i adore you JD.

my mind is blank tonight

2005-08-03T05:46:31Z

-this sucks: eating almost an entire bagel and then noticing on the last tiny bite that there is mold...and then you wonder "how much fungi did i ingest while ignorantly enjoying the cinnamon raisin flavor?"
-i need more pictures from this summer. if anyone has any good ones for me to send to Adam...mail em my way por favor. :)
-i watched this movie today...the transporter. it was really really good. and there was one part where the transporter was being all like "i dont wanna hook up with you" and the asian chick was like "i have to repay you for your help" and then the transporter walked away and all of a sudden turned around and like jumped on her and stuff. man...that was a good scene. ooh im sad and desperate.
-i want to be called mamasita. how sexy is that? man.
-i miss furman. i cant wait to have my own apartment. i wish i had a birthday coming up. i need presents or large amounts of money that i dont feel guilty spending.

erroneous! - go see wedding crashers

2005-08-01T00:00:00Z

-I just spend the past 2 or so hours watching a horrible mystery/romance/crime/suspense/whatever movie and came up with one conclusion...I NEEEEEEED TO GET SOME! i mean i dont even need to get a lot, just a little would be ok with me. those cheezy romance scenes really made me - well, they just made me feel lonely. how's that?
-i swam/biked/ran a triathlon this morning. the entirety of the bike/run portions (about an hour total) i sang "here i go again on my own" - whitesnake i believe. my new number one theme song! i'm pooped, not physically though, its weird, but my bod feels fine. yes...i said bod...hahaha. anyway, i did ok - i beat my mom and that was the goal! lofty huh! so im addicted now. i want to do a triathlon every week. so im gonna keep up the training. its really quite exhilirating indeed.
-beach, this weekend...the plan: leave fort mill/cola anytime you want - thursday night or friday and drive to seabrook and then leave sunday. i cant wait guys!
-so im hungry

misalalison @ 2005-07-28T23:56:00

2005-07-29T04:00:56Z

-Friday's (the 28) Charlotte Observer, Style section, front page...check it out. Bobby has an article about the cuff clips. im proud of him. quite proud indeed.

misalalison @ 2005-07-27T01:39:00

2005-07-27T05:58:49Z

-IM AT A LOW...maybe. my mom told me yesterday that she had a dream. in the dream my dad was really proud of me for something and decided to bake me a "double layer chocolate fudge something cake". my comment to her - yea fucking right mom, i havent done anything dad would be proud of in years. which. to be quite frank, is true. so...now, i think i need to step aside from my habits and craziness and shiz and just ponder. what do i want to do/be/accomplish/etc. i know. this sounds super queer doesnt it? oh well i think its necessary. especially if i want to graduate furman with any sort of semi decent GPA. little known fact guys - lisa does have morals, values, integrity, etc. i know. SURPRISE! i'll be back soon enough. i've just been in a big rut for a while. oh and dont worry kids. im still a PARTY MACHINE! just maybe 3 or less times a week.
-maple and brown sugar milk. someone make that so i can stop pouring extra milk into my instant oatmeal and mixing it then slurping off the excess that tastes OH SO GOOD! please Coburg - if you're out there. PLEEAAAASE!
-ive been exercizing more lately. result: im getting deezed. yea Cartman style "BeefCAAAAKE" for those of you who have seen that episode of South Park. which reminds me...
-why do i get along best with young people, relate the most to young people, and have the same interests for the most part as a 13 year old boy??? i mean jeeze - just call me Lisa Michael Jackson Malison. oh wait...im Lisa Hellen Keller Malison still. i guess we could just call me fucked up. oye
-tomorrow's a busy day of volunteering. Immortal Technique for the ride. heck yes

grrr

2005-07-21T14:13:50Z

-im a little irritated...i drank heavily last night at Furman, went to bed super late, woke up at 6:45 this morning to drive an AIDS patient to the doc and they stood me up. so i came home to a broken air conditioner and all i want to do is sleep without drowning in my own sweat.
-i think im going to lay off the heavy drinking. keep it to a 2-3 beer limit. so im tipsy but not fucking retarted like last night.
-i was doing situps on the ground dangerously close to an ant hill where some deviants decided to bite the shit outta my back. booo
-i drunk dialed just about everyone i shouldnt, including some rando g-ville local who's phone number i got a long time ago at the g-spot.
-im at an all time low. i dont even care much when im passed out and you can kinda see my undies. LOW! damn
-i think i used to be a cute/funny drunk. now i know im just a stupid, obnoxious, outta control drunk. so im taking a break from the heavy drinking officially

really super irrelevant

2005-07-15T03:23:30Z

-i like eating salads in the dark. each bite is a surprise.
-triathlon training has begun...my aunt kimbe is making me a schedule so i can really whoop some ass.
-im regressing in life. in every aspect of my life. i miss chris all of a sudden. i eat a lot. i dont excercise as much. i drink often too.
-i have a cut on my knee and a dog started licking it today. is that normal? maybe its a vampire dog. its not like blood really tastes that bad though. if i were a dog, and i didnt know any better, i might lick some blood too. its better than eating my own poop. when i get a dog, it better not do that. i'll make it wear diapers so it doesnt have access to its poop.
-My new summertime addictions:
-wikipedia.org
-cartoon network, PTI, law and order
-eating (oh wait thats not new)
-i waxed my car today. can you say self esteem boost! yea!!!

granole

2005-07-14T00:55:52Z

-im an embarassement...its official. lets just say i should lay off the substances for a while. at least i wasnt slutty. im officially not slutty EVER! so ha. im just a lush. thats a nice sounding way to put it i think.
-FYI:
WASP1 or Wasp ( P ) Pronunciation Key (wsp, wôsp)
n.
A white Protestant of Anglo-Saxon ancestry.
A white, usually Protestant member of the American upper social class.
am i a WASP? i dont think so. damn.
-i swam laps last night. 16 sec to one end of katie's pool and back. niiiice. just call me dan jantzen. wasnt he a swimmer. hmm or a speed skater? or an ice skater? actually i dont know. forget that.
-i smelled blueberry morning cereal on I-77 by Westinghouse today. i almost wanted to pull over. it was delicious.
-i found a car. '05 mercedes SL55 AMG. dream car. man i need to invent something now!
-i made friends at the Lex dealer today. he was really nice. went to Charlotte Christian then App State. he didnt ask for my digits...just more proof that ive completely lost the mack. damn it really is gone.
-oh wait, i've decided to become asexual. there are really only 2 or so guys i really would date right now...and neither of them like me one bit. one of them thinks im a nutcase and is beyond over me and the other one just isnt diggin it. fuckin a. i want to meet my perfect man now. NOW DAMMIT.
-liz says im a "granola". i like that, even if its supposed to be negative. it isnt to me:)

misalalison @ 2005-07-04T12:18:00

2005-07-04T16:21:39Z

i feel like im a bad drunk. any input anyone? 2 nights ago, i got sloppy. but that might've been more than just alchy if you get my drift. i was swing dancing to the doors, crawling on the floor, and dozing off in various locations like the bathroom. classy Lis, classy. last night, well i was drunk, but i think i handled myself ok, up until i decided that a certain someone's bed would be a nice place to sleep. i wasnt slutty though. no worries. summertime is fun.

misalalison @ 2005-06-30T23:38:00

2005-07-01T03:50:46Z

~i used to play this game alot when i was bored (especially my GER's at furman) ...i'd think about people, then assign them really bizarre characteristics. for example: i bet ____ _____farts, then likes to waft the smell up to his nose to get a good whiff. or ____ _____ is the kind of person who washes their hands after going to the bathroom if and only if people are around. or ____ ______ doesnt feel bad stealing food from people's cabinets/refridgerators and pretending like it didnt happen. or ____ _____ is the kind of person who would answer the phone in the middle of sex (if it was mildly important). or ____ _____ definitely dances naked in the mirror while singing michael jackson, celine dion, or peter gabriel even. this game can go on for hours - trust me. it has.
~someone thinks im pretty. pretty...now, lets translate. is pretty above cute, and below beautiful, and clearly below stunning. or is pretty below cute even. or is pretty just the adjective of choice for that person at that moment. what a waste of a comment. im done with that thought
~lately ive been committing a lot of vocabulary faux pas's.?? its probably one thing i hate about myself the most. in fact, when it happens, it kills me. im not even sure if i do it, but ever since i used the wrong word and brady called me out, i've been insane. i considered ordering some of those yellow vocabulary books or re-installing the old SAT study program that benefited kathryn a whole lot. hmm
~my mom gave kathryn and i a fun little assignment. maybe it was spurred on by my vocab faux pas's or maybe by the last few papers she and i have edited for kathryn, either way the assignment is as follows: we are to read articles in the paper and write 1-2 page responses to them, making a concious effort to use as many good vocab words and proper grammer as possible. poop. after writing somewhere between 5 and 20 of these papers, we get a "surprise incentive"!!! oh goodie - ANOTHER FRUIT BASKET MOM!!! i can harldy wait to get crackin. watch out thursday's charlotte observer, here i come with my scissors.
~i almost ordered a subscription to Esquire online yesterday. good thing my stomach called and i got distracted by some wheat thin, butter, and strawberry jam crackers before i turned into a full fledged dike. hmmm or would i? who knows, but Esquire is a great mag, as is GQ. man i hope someone "accidentally leaves one in my seat pocket" on the flight to Wisconsin next week.

thats all for now, i think smell brownies

maybe ill lay off the booze for a while...at least a couple days

2005-06-28T16:16:41Z

-im so glad katie's in town. we threw down two nights in a row. like champs. we didnt let our lingering hangover from the first night's debauchery get in the way of another similar and slightly more out of control evening...thanks mostly to mr john repede. who, by the way, needs to pick his boxers up from my house. i found them floating in a bathtub full of dirty water this morning. anyhoo, i rate the success of an evening on whether or not i regret anything the next morning. the only thing i regret is not locking my mom's liquor cabinet. otherwise, it was a delight...and i wasnt the least bit slutty thank you.
- mom comes home today... im nervous. yea - 2 of your liquor bottles are empty and you're completely missing a bottle of vodka and berringer. and some brewskys. and your sheets are in the laundry. and theres mud on your new rug. and someone probably killed your fish. and i used your credit card for things that arent emergencies. thats all

summer now has a purpose

2005-06-23T03:33:53Z

THE RULES:

*1200 calories per day
*update on fitday.com everyday
*NO fast food!
-and if you break this there will be reprecussions (sp?)
*exercize regularly
*no sweets

this is my summertime "get healty" plan. katie and i are gonna be studs soon, just wait. that no fast food part is doable...the no sweets - i just might go crazy. we'll see how it works. the goal is 20 lbs by september 13. i hate doing it by lb's though, cus i dont weigh myself much. i guess i could find a BMI measurement. i'll get back to you on that. BMI is better i think. i bet ill save money with this too. i mean fast food and sweets appear pretty regularly on the bank statement in the form of grocery stores, brusters, wendys, and s&s.

new goal - use the money i save on eating fast food and sweets and buy a sweet tivo player! yes!!

i like having a goal. I CAN DO IT! i have to motivate myself.

quick thought?

2005-06-23T01:04:34Z

i saw an albino dude at bonnaroo and was drawn to him. i mean i was about to start mackin, but then he disappeared. i think i saw him at jurassic 5 or maybe it was joss stone. dammit i dont remember.

this one's more even more boring than you might expect - i'd skip it if i were you

2005-06-22T03:54:31Z

i was supposed to go running 4 hours ago...but i just napped and watched tv. dammit why am i such a bum. now it's like 11:41 and i still dont feel like it.
if you asked me 3 weeks ago "Lisa, are you easily addicted to things?" i'd be like "fuck no man!"...if you asked me todayl, i'd second guess that shit. summer makes me suck, seriously, summertime is my weakness. actually i suck during the school year too, but at least i exercize and get out a little more.
i love fitday.com. that website is sweet. i think its supposed to help me meet my "ideal weight" but so far im pretty sure im gaining weight.
ryan calls me frequently. like a couple times a week or so. lately its been more. id say he's the one ex-bf that i have that i want to maintain a good frienship with. fa sho. chris - hopeless. that was one of those i really love him too much kinda things - well at least he and I had that in common - we both loved him a whole fucking lot. other ex's not really worthwhile to mention too much. i mean ryan is just a super guy. he's so frank, yet still manages to say things i want to hear most of the time. its crazy, i know, but it happens.
my mom's birthday is this weekend. we're getting her orchids. she asked for it specifically. why doesnt she just invest in a RV and drive it to Florida to die while we're at it. gosh mom. boooooring.
i started crying in the mall...in public the other day. with my sis. it was subtle. you know, just a few tears in the eyes that dribble down your cheeks quietly. fucking fathers day signs everywhere. if there's one characteristic about lisa malison that will never change - its that im bitter. im bitter forever. i cant even direct it at anyone, thats what sucks. i cant get revenge on cancer. i mean unless i become a scientist and find a surefire cure. that would be sweet, like "haha! got you lung cancer - suck it!" thats what i'd say. but still pointless in curing my bitterness. irv says i need to turn my constant bombardment of negative thoughts into positive ones. like thats possible. anyway, so im doing that. the positive - i can think of what my dad would want me to do with my life and quit bitching about how i have to live with two incompetant nincompoops and be productive. thats me, being positive. im trying
this is a really fuckign boring journal entry. sorry to those of you who actually decided to read it.
so who's got sweet 4th of july plans!!!? i mean thats totally coming up SOOOOOON. lemme know. im down with throwin down.
hey does anyone know how to fix record players. i have 2 pimp ones belonging to my dad and the belt is broken on one.
i think albino people are superior human beings. maybe not when it comes to sun exposure, vision, or the like - but inside. they have magical spirits. damn dont i sound like a fucking weirdo. but seriously. its like they have a magical aura - like a unicorn. have i been doing drugs? no
today i had 74 grams of fat!!! according to fitday. holy shit. thats not ok. i think i should max out in the 30's maybe. oye and 2180 calories. you'd think i was trying to bulk up the way i eat. EMBARASSING! oh well ill work on it. i just hope kathryn doesnt check out my fitday.com site. she'd fucking make me jog and eat only veggies for the next month.
so i was in the car with an AIDS patient today, doing my volunteering biznass, and i was about to start bitching about this big "bugbite/pimple" on the side of my face. you know the normal mindless, irrelevant lisa conversation. but then i thought to myself - are you fucking kidding me. this woman is HIV positive and has a 4 year old son and is super poor, and you're about to bitch about a bugbite/pimple!!! NO SIR! so i decided to skip that and discuss something uplifting - basketball. might this be a touch of tactfullness in me? mayhaps? peeking though? probably not.
the last person i want to be is a ditzy complainer. what a shitty personality combination.

MY NEW BIZNASSS

2005-06-14T22:30:55Z

keeping everyone posted - buckle up guys, this one's exciting! ...not really. i was being sarcastic.
~~~~so...who's a whole lot stupider than they thought they were...moI! i ordered a fake, online, with a debit card (yes yes, thats not even the stupid part) so i thought, if i get one from a state far away (Pennyslyvania or however the fuck you spell that for example) it would work down here in the south. minor problem...i used my home address on the id - so it's from PA but it says Fort Mill, SC 29708. i cried for a good 30 minutes when it came in the mail. and lemme tell ya, it wasnt exactly a bargain.
~~~~i have a new passion...bicycling. i love to take relaxing bike rides around fort mill while belting out my fav tunes (today i enjoyed a random zeppelin playlist for the ride) almost fell into oncoming traffic on Gold Hill Rd - just outsie Tega Cay. i was trying to get my cell phone out of my swimsuit top and the distraction was almost my demise. i survived with some badass looking bruises and a newfound fear of multitasking on a bike.
~~~~Bonnaroo was last weekend. i know, im not hippie enough to go to bonnaroo. blah blah blah. i had fun. in fact if i could live in bonnaroo and not do shit and relax for the rest of my life, i just may. or at least do it once a month. next year we're considering RV'in it. fuck yea. ps the Mars Volta show was INCREDIBLE. i still get little excited shivers thinking about how sweet it was. some hottie mchotterson that works at Manifest is a huge mars volta fan - maybe ill mack next time im in. hmmmm or not
~~~~speaking of the mack - i think ive lost my skill. i had it, maybe for a year. now its gone. i feel like austin powers with no mojo, except worse, cus i dont think i'll ever retrieve the mack.
~~~~so i have 4 or so new sweet ideas for inventions. i'd put them on here, but someone might steal them. sorry then. but FYI i'm working on it and one day i'll be rich and i'll never have to get a real job i can just teach tennis lessons, tutor, go to school, and volunteer FOREVER! that would be golden.
~~~~go to my printroom site to look at my pictures. now!:)
~~~~on a heavier note (does that work?) umm yea, i think im developing problems. like serious ones. of the psychological type. i dont even know where they stem. but i do know that as i slip farther and farther into the land of mediocrity, laziness, unattractiveness, and meanness - little miss kathryn is only millimeters away from motherfucking perfection. why does there have to be such a contrast. i think she does it on purpose. she emphasizes it. she wants to lose weight!!! MOTHER FUCKING WHORE YOU DONT NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT SO SHUTUP! and she always has money and good hair and perfect makeup and SHES SO CHIPPER ALL THE TIME. and boys call her around the fucking clock. what do i get? a very very occasional rejected booty call from some loser i knew freshman year. thanks! thanks a whole fucking lot! fuck. and she says "why are you such a bitch all the time lisa" - and i say (this is a direct quote by the way) "maybe because i have to fucking live with you and mom, maybe that makes me bitchy, i dont know!~!!!!!!" at least im honest - thats one thing ill always have going for me, if thats even considered a good thing, hmm.

i'm back

2005-05-30T20:26:59Z

hit up my cell...im down for some hanging out

in shock

2005-05-29T13:39:51Z

this morning i got an email from someone in my HES class last winter. he told me that he's concerned that i drink too much and we should do lunch. i should have someone to talk to. is this a wakeup call? cus i feel like its just "typical furman" people being overly concerned. why not try help me find jesus too? do i drink too much? i went out last night. dammit...this summer we'll make it no more than twice a week, how's that? damn i'm nauseated. i think im still drunk actually. maybe thats it

almost summertime:)

2005-05-27T05:58:57Z

Ryan says nobody wants to date me because im too forward. What's happened to subtle, classy lisa? i hope she comes back soon cus this single thing only gets me into trouble. hallelujah
"I'm a hamster" - is that how you spell hamster? i wanna spell it hampster - but i dont know. oh well...i told Tang last night that "i'm a hamster! I'm a hamster!" cus i kept running into stuff. new nickname will be happily accepted.
exams tomorrow, sat, and mon. i'll be missing y'all on sunday - thanks bums! :( i cant wait to bond with the high school crew this summer.
you think Starbucks will hire me? i'm not a good worker at all, but i want money so i can buy TIVO for next year. I NEED TIVO! bad
im a touch on the stressed out side...motherfucking exams. i wonder if i can start a petition to make them optional. and make furman class attendance optional too. i hate obligations.
lots of embarassing pictures of me have been taken recently.
i think i might be on the verge of alcoholism. seriously this time. still havent drank alone though. thats good - or maybe it just means my friends are alcoholics too. hmmmm
im also addicted to led zeppelin. who woulda thought. its like i just cant get enough. i thought it was Chris influenced. but i'm over him, like way over him, i dont need him at all over him. so it cant be that. Zeppelin holds up as officially just being really good fucking music. i mean the best. im addicted.
im going to Bonnaroo this summer too. I know what you're thinking "since when is lisa a dirty hippie?!"...dont worry - im not:) just thought it would be super fun and Diane offered to pay for this "educational musical festival" thanks mom:) little did she know it was a seemingly futile drunk request at 1ish one morning. ooh how persuasive i can be.
motizzle's gonna come up to the fort and chill for a dayish before...june 7/8 - im super excited. i hope the fort has lots to offer while she's in town. if not, im sure we can make fun.
ive had enough typing
this shit is boring anyway
peace out! haha - reminds me of when i used to be compared to that annoying bitch from Cruel Intentions - Selma Blair or something like that...she says "peace out" real dorkily. enough